9 posts tagged “forty”
You're the DJ: what are the next five songs coming up after the break?
Before I Let Go - Frankie Beverly and Maze
I gotta make sure Im right/ before I let go
I Wanna Be Your Lover - Prince
I wanna be your mama and your sista too
You and I - Rick James [RIP]
Some people must say Im infatuated, ooh ooh/ I dont care 'cause they really dont know
Dance to the Drummers Beat - Herman Kelly
Let Dance!
To Be Real - Cheryl Lynn
What you know, now. Say it again!/ To be real!
...so he's out of town
so he called today
So What? He's only gonna call once a week?
All Im saying is he better come over this weekend.
And cook for me too!
And take this crick out my back
Like he did the last time ((grinning))
Or that's it!
Im erasing him from my phone!
Answer: Thursday August 30th, 2007
Question: What day is today?
Researched it on the internet and found out they had a copy of the CD in stock at Borders Books in Downtown Crossing. I bought the last one walked outside and saw one of the Andelman Brothers from the Phantom Gourmet Show, just walking down Washington Street like nothing. He was scowling. I spoke and told him I loved his show. He said, "Thanks!" and kept it moving
Got a ride from a bus driver to Haymarket, got down to my block got some Olde Tyme Jumbo in the blue bag, Peach Arizona Ice Tea and some liquid reinforcement. Gave the homeless guy at Seven Eleven dollar, he reminded me of Daddy
Went home, gathered my Bible, self help books, both phones, tissues Arizona and Henny in my frozen green cup, ran the bubble bath got in and pressed play on the remote...
I cried a little and sang along... had to hop out and get the words I printed off at work.
(Acapella Part) Cause there's change thats got to come/ She said thank the Lord/ And everyday I thank you, Lo ord/ For all the stars and all the seas/ And all the birds and all the bee eee ees! (Drums and Horns Crescendo)
Got back in and listened to How Can I Be Sure? Good Lovin', I Been Lonely Too Long, Groovin' (on a Sunday Afternoon), (It's) A Beautiful Morning, and People (Everywhere Just) Got to Be Free, and then Heaven again
The song is beautiful and spiritual and haunting... well that's how it felt to me but can listen to a clip here: Heaven
I wrote about the song three times so now Im done
Either Im gonna work through my issues and move forward in my life
Or Im about to die, one or the other
Besides, in the next post I have to write about my new horny young manfriend I met last Sunday. ((Tee Hee))
Peace and Blessings
Audio: Share a song that evokes a powerful memory.
Submitted by MalieKai.
Heaven by The Rascals 1969
There's a place called Heaven/ Im gonna get there yet/ wo wo yeah!
Now the internet says the song came out in 1969, but I remember it as I was four and five, which would have been 1971- 1972. Songs did stay out longer then, and my family had the forty-five. When we moved to Concourse Village they had to hide it from me because every time I heard it I would bawl. At work trying not to snot up right now.
I don’t think I understood all of the lyrics. But the three-quarters time, the organ, the ah ah ah oooh, and the harmony? I knew that was church music. I had been to church and understood Heaven was where you go when you die. You left and didn’t come back.
We moved when I was in Kindergarten. At first it was a cool adventure… then I understood that I could not go back to my old house, not even to look in it. I didn’t like that. Then I changed schools. After Kindergarten was over, I switched to the brand-new shiny school across the street from my new house and couldn’t go back. I didn’t like that. My sister was born I liked that sometime. But not when she was sleeping and my parents told me to be quiet, not to wake her, like I was chopped liver. Just one more person mommy could put ahead of me. I loved my sister, we couldn’t take her back, but I couldn’t get ever get time alone with my mother again. My parents started to fight more. I think the sexual abuse started around the same time, or a little before. My trust, my faith (not to mention my virginity) was gone, couldn’t get any of that back.
It was too much all at once. Moving, changing schools, new teachers, my sister born, my father using my mouth as a condom, my mother’s rejection, she didn’t even want to hug me, I even changed dancing schools. It was all mashed up together. I wanted to go back to something familiar. In my young four and a half year old mind, I equated all the trouble with the new stuff, so I wanted the old stuff back. To be safe again. To know where I was when I woke up. I knew folks were safe in Heaven, but as far as I understood, you had to die to go there.
Well, if there was anymore bad stuff… or new stuff… coming my way
I was willing to die to avoid it
Thirty-Five years later,
Sometimes
I feel the same way
PEACE AND BLESSINGS
It's auto-eroticism... You do it in a car
Au Revoir
We stayed till 2:30ish, I had one more martini and two chocolate cake shots. Then we left and went to Amy Ruth's (116th) for breakfast. Then I had three hours of sleep on the edge of my mother's couch and we got up to go to NJ. My sister's show was nice, really uplifting, but we didnt make it back to the Bronx till like 5pm. I turned right back around and caught a 9pm bus to Boston and came to work this morning at 10:30am.
...cellphone convo on Greyhound bus from New York, late Sunday night
BarBriMan: So you're forty now. So if some guy asks you how old you are, what are you gonna tell him?
ChezNiki: Well if someone asks me directly, Ill tell them. But usually they dont... and by the time I ask them, its too late... and then I find out that they're under thirty.
BarBriMan: Oh, so you're a Cougar, Chez. Uh Huh!
ChezNiki: Nuh Uhn!
BarBriMan: ((Laughing))
ChezNiki: Well not intentionally. I think being a Cougar is intentional. For me it just happens by accident. The fifty year olds up here dont look like you. You know, the Cougars have a website.
BarBriMan: Oh yeah? What's the address?
ChezNiki: I dont remember, but they had a whole segment on the TodayShow about it and they featured the website. "Cougars dot com" or something. Besides the fact, there is a financial component that I just cant get down with.
BarBriMan: Well if you want to play with a young guy, you have to pay
ChezNiki: Nuh Uhn!
BarBriMan: Un Huh! You know Chez, Ive never f*cked a forty year old woman before...
ChezNiki: ((evil grin))
BarBriMan: Chez, when I come to Boston, can I stay with you?
ChezNiki: At your own risk, Sweety. You can come in, but you might not make it back out... might wind up laid out at MGH, hurt up, worn out... You old now, you might need to take some little blue pills to help you out.
BarBriMan: ((deep panty-dropper voice)) Chez, Im not gonna need any help with you
ChezNiki: ((crossing legs, fanning self))
Bon Nuit Mes Enfants
Okay so, 2007 is the year I turn forty. I am excited and scared. As usual, I put a lot of pressure on myself. When I was younger, I had a lot of expectations for my forty-year old self. By now I was sure I would be:
A Homeowner
Business Owner
An Attorney
A Mother
A Wife (or possibly, A Divorcee)
But most importantly I would be Emotionally Free.
Free of the self-doubt of my teens, the confusion of my twenties and the longing of my thirties...but not yet old enough for the hot flashes aches pains and relative incapacity of my older years. Forty is the Critical Mass, the Tipping Point, the infamous Sexual Peak happens, and you're old enough not to have to act virginal while your hormones are raging...for the second time...since the 1980s.
I dont own my home or my business, yet. I havent passed a bar exam or a pregnancy test, yet. And I havent said "I do" to anyone except the guy at the end of the checkout counter who asked me if I wanted paper inside plastic.
However, Ive finished both my degrees, I live in a luxury apartment in Downtown, I speak two and a half languages, I am a GodMother, I have travelled Internationally, I perform (singing) regularly, I am kind and compassionate and I am almost forty.
I didnt reach all the goals I set for myself way back in 1979, when I was twelve and understood the world. Ive reached new and different goals, met new people, left New York and survived! Who knew?
The Possibilities Are Endless
This year, I intend to fullfill the last part of my expectations and Live Free. I am going to party and enjoy myself all year long. I want to party in NOLA, Toronto, West Palm, Vegas, New York...even Paris. Feel Me? My New Years resolution is to become Guilt Free, Enjoy Life and Fall Madly In Love...with myself.
...Night Night
